Tuesday, November 6, 2007

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Um, I'm a little confused about why I make you laugh Kim. Can someone explain that to me?

Only 18 more days until my 16th birthday.

Which reminds me that I need to tell you guys what I want for my birthday. Well I'm sure you all know that Id really like a car but that aint gonna happen!!! That'd be a good laugh and a half. OMG that reminds me!!! I keep having these dreams that I'm driving but my breaks don't work or Ill start speeding and I cant slow down. I guess I have a fear?

Ive been meaning to write about this next thing for a really long time. I've been debating on whether or not to write but I guess I need to get it off my shoulders. Last week or maybe the week before I was pretty much running to the bus stop because I was late. I look up and the bus was there but it was still about 15 or 20 feet in front of me. But I looked really hard in the fog and I swear I saw a man standing in the middle of the road in front of the bus like the bus wouldn't move until I got on. I couldn't see his face because his head was down and he was wearing a baseball hat. When I got on the bus I looked out the window and he was gone. No where to be seen. I didn't say anything because I didn't want people to think I was crazy. But now you guys probably think so. I told mom and she just gave me a look. Not a look like I had two heads, but a look that made me a little uncomfortable. And seriously if you guys think I'm LOONY now just don't tell me cause I was afraid that was going to happen.....

My weekend,

I raked in the rain. I cut my hand with scissors. I thought about Joe...A LOT.Not that that's anything new. I don't know why but my heart still aches really bad. I miss him a lot. I want to see him so bad. I don't know if this happened but him and Jenn were supposed to go snowboarding and me and him had this little inside joke that we would buy another jet ski. And I still feel really bad about yelling at him while we all were playing spinners and he wouldn't pay attention I just cant let any of it go. I promised him when I showed him my schedule for 10th grade that id do a good job and now I'm failing some of my classes. I know this shouldn't mean anything but my birthdays on the 25th and that means a lot to me and not in a good way either. I mean I'm defiantly excited that I'll be 16 but if it was on any day other then the 25th......

2 comments:

Jenny_Lin said...

i used to have dreams like that before i got my license. they go away.

you should really try harder in school heather, not just because of your promise but for you.. you really will regret not doing your best.

Steph said...

Your heart still aches really bad because this is all still so incredible fresh in our hearts.
We're all going through the same thing Heather...it still hurts...just keep trying to stand up and do your best.