Thursday, January 24, 2008


Im not kidding when i say that this song totally changed my life

May the angels protect you
Trouble neglect you
And heaven accept you when its time to go home
May you always have plenty
Your glass never empty
And know in your belly
You're never alone

May your tears come from laughing
You find friends worth having
With every year passing
They mean more than gold
May you win but stay humble
Smile more than grumble
And know when you stumble
You're never alone

Never alone
Never alone
I¹ll be in every beat of your heart
When you face the unknown
Wherever you fly
This isn't goodbye
My love will follow you stay with you
Baby you¹re never alone

Well I have to be honest
As much as I wanted
I’m not gonna promise the cold winds won¹t blow
So when hard times have found you
And your fears surround you
Wrap my love around you
You're never alone


May the angels protect you
Trouble neglect you
And heaven accept you when its time to go home
And when hard times have found you
And your fear surrounds you
Wrap my love around you
You¹re never alone


My love will follow you stay with you
Baby you're never alone

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

Um okay?

So I didnt have to go into school until like 12 for my English final today. We had to bring our writers notebooks to class so she can read some of our entrys and grade them and stuff. Well she gave mine back to me with some comments. On the veary last page of my writers notebook she wrote "You have some amazing talents Heather and youre an amazing writer. The only thing I have to say is that you have some very strong opinions and you may want to be careful with that, especially as a writer." Thats an exact quote too. Word for word. So I asked myself more questions like, should I listen to an english teacher about if I can write or not? Or should I be listening to a professional critic? Thats not the first time she's told me she thought I could write. She told me one day after class. She told me in some other comments in my papers. I dont get her though. On one of my papers she told me I am a good writer but on that same paper she gave me a C-? Pssh whatever! So than what is a good writer?

Ive been so confused lately. Next year ( my junior year ) our guidence councilers encourage us to start to look for colleges and stuff. Well I still dont know what to do. I really want to be a cosmotologist but at the same time I really want to be a photographer. Scotts mommy told me to go to school for both and I was like "Wah? youre crazy" and she was saying how I could do both. She said that I could get into the modeling industry. I looked at her like she was crazy and said "yeah right! I dont want to model(for obvious reasons.) Then she was like no no you can do hair and make up and all that and then photograph them for high fashion. PPAHH thats funny. Id never make it that far not in my wildest dreams. So im in a pit of endless dreams I wanna do this and I wanna to that. But whats best for me. I wanna make it somewhere I wanna be somebody. I wanna be that girl that everybody wants to get their hair done from or that photographer that people know and recomend. Its all hard work. If I could really have it my way. Id sing. Id get a record deal some way and make it and be the anti-brittney! You know the type of role model that moms want there kids look up to and dance to my music or whatever. Again a bottemless pit of endless dreams!

Thursday, January 17, 2008


I made it into barbershop again!!!

and i have finals next week...ugh

So I have a new dream. I want to try out for american idol. Even if its just for the experiance and the excitement. Moms supporting me for it....

Tuesday, January 8, 2008


You asked me my opinion about god and I gave it too you. Why are you giving me a hard time about it? (mom told me to put it plain and simple like that instead of beating around the bush)

Drunk driving is bad and wont label people who do it either because I know one person who had been drunk driving and they happen to be very close to me. I think people who have problems like that need more support than critism and I feel that way because I did live a household with a drug addict. And at the time I didnt want him to get help but over the years Ive learned. I dont agree with most decissions peole make. I have grown up so fast and I have learned so much about that type of life style because I have been on the other side of that life style. I know the disapointment and I know the feeling. Its hard to explain but just living with an addict taught me a lot. I know the feeling of some of people who I had described. Ive been judged based on my personal life my WHOLE life.

When I said it wasnt based on opinion anymore and it was based on fact. I meant that its basically a fact that the world is based on opinion and opinions hurt people.

Monday, January 7, 2008

How I feel

In my English class, my teacher has us write in a journal about subjects that she gives us or on a quote she gives us. I guess she just thought this quote was going to be a good topic and a good class discussion.

I wasn't sure how I felt about the quote. I haven't really thought about whether not god made us strong enough to handle big situations. As a matter of fact, I don't even know if I believe in god. I think all the time about if there was a god and if he did have all the powers and what not that every one says he does, then why is our world the way it is. If he had all those qualities people say he does than why doesn't he fix the world and how we live. Don't you think he would have stopped all of it before it even happened? Don't you think that if he really knew what the future held he wouldn't have 'created' such a world. God loves us? If he did and if there is a god than why are there terrorists, murderers, rapists, thief's, and whole bunch of other types of people? I could go on and on and on about why I don't think that I do believe in him. Maybe its not about believing in him. Maybe I just don't have the trust and faith that other people have in him.

It just gets me to the point that NOTHING IS ACCEPTED in this world anymore. Mentally challenged people get picked on, 'gays' get picked on, fat people get picked on, people who are 'too thin' get picked on, adults who don't have jobs are labeled, adults who struggle with money are labeled, teens who don't do good in school get judged, teens who get married are labeled and judged, teen pregnancy is labeled and judged, people who go to 'poor' schools get labeled, people who go to 'rich' schools are labeled,people who aren't considered 'beautiful' are judged and labeled, people with STDS are judged and labeled, people are labeled for EVERYTHING. Is that really how we want to be? NO. Is that how the world was raised? Yes. We are followers. There is no leader. We follow somebody who has one opinion and then it turns to a big mess. This is what the world is and I choose to accept those people who aren't accepted. If I could I would change the views of people. If I could I'd change the world. But I choose to accept the fact that people can only change themselves. I'm one person and no one will listen to a 16 year old girl.

Remember how I said we could start a chain reaction to change the world? Well we did start a chain reaction, only this reaction isn't a positive reaction. Its the reaction of hurt lives, of hurt bodies, of hurt souls.

I bet you that at least HALF of my readers wont even ACCEPT what I just had to say. Its not based on opinion anymore, its based on fact.

Wednesday, January 2, 2008

Agree or disagree

I came upon this quote and I want to know if EVERYONE agrees or disagrees with it.

"God never gives you anything you will not be able to handle"