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Sorry I havent been posting. For some odd reason my google account wasnt working.

Thank you all for such a wonderful surprise birthday party. I have to come clean though. I saw grammy rush to the bathroom so I knew something was up. I also looked right at you guys in the bathroom and it took you like 20 seconds to yell "SURPRISE" hahaha.

My grades right now are so good. If we were to get report cards right now, I'd be on honor role. YAY ME. Now lets see if I can keep those grades up. I start drivers ed on January second. Which by the way my mother is rufusing to teach me how to drive and wants beepa or uncle chris to teach me. But heres the thing. Its not like we live next door together and im a middle aged teenager, you think im going to give up my weekends? HA yeah right! Another thing is I need 25 hours of driving practice and i cant get that all in in 8 weekends mom is going to have to take me during the week too. I dont know. Maybe i should just wait for my driving instructer to teach me...

Turkey Day

Yeah, so my turkey was AWESOME!

Happy Thanksgiving my beautiful family. I love you all very much

ps. My birthday is only 3 days away!!!

Did you know?

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So yeah...Im never going to have to worry about spelling anything right ever again...If you guys could read that you guys can read what I write.
So heres to Stephanie and I!

oh yeah, on christmas I was thinking about singing slient night, but im still not to sure...Kim, Bob and Jesse wouldnt be able to hear me sing it...

UH-OH!

Mom is sick today so Im going to have to try and take care of her today. Hopefully I dont get sick doing so. Shes not as sick as the kids and Robin were, which is really great and hopefully she'll feel better tomorrow for Thanksgiving so we can still have it here.

Robin, Mom really doesn't want you to feel bad. She wanted to take care of you and the kids and she knew what could happen going into the situation.

My birthday is also in 4 DAYS. what'd you get me? HUHHHH?

KIM!

THANK YOU Kim, Bob, and jesse. I opened the card early...i know, im bad. What can I say...im 16 and teens my age can be rebelious. Jk

And Kim...mom wanted me to tell you a little story. well, I was trying to do something nice for mom and i tried to put up a shelf. But i couldnt get the nails in so i had to take them out. But then there was chipped paint and holes in the wall so I stuck silly puddy in the wall. She thought youd think that was funny. She also wanted me to tell you a personal joke i told my mother and she thought it was kinda disturbing and well...maybe you had to be there but...One night i was taking a shower and I saw a dead fly behind me. So when I got out of the shower I said JOKINGLY "Mom? I think a fly fell out of my crack" She cracked up laughing and thought that I should tell you that. But now everyone else knows...and Im probably not going to hear the end of that one either!

so um yeah!

I just watched a movie with my mother. We watched Georgia Rule and it was an awesome movie. Its about a girl who has to go live with her grandmother over summer in Idaho. The girl is sort of a trouble maker but theres a reason for that and I dont want to give to much away.....Watch it you'll like it.

Let It Snow!

Did you southern New Hampshireners get snow? We did! I walked home in it. But It wasnt enough to stick or cover the ground. Whitefield already has like 6" those lucky snowmens! And it was really stupid of me to walk home without a swearshirt on...

Um I guess I spelled spelt wrong which is REDICULOUS! It didnt show up on spell check. So HA. Even spell check spells spelt wrong. Plus Im going to be a veary famous person, like the president so I can change all these words that I spell wrong to be spelt right. So doctor will be spelt docter and spelled will be spelt spelt!

Did you know that independence war thingy started on Alyssas birthday in 1775? betcha I just learned you a new thing!

well everybody my birthday is in 8 days! Grammies is on monday!

And Robin...I did get "beaut" from my grandmother so you can blame her. Oh and I also got my shoe obsession from her as well....she started me young I tell ya!

Ok so its D.O.C.T.O.R

Ive always spelt it D.O.C.T.E.R and no one has ever corrected me on it. Psssh whatever I'm going to write to the president and tell him to change it because doctor just doesnt look right. It looks right spelt docter.

OK so you know how I said I was failing some of my classes? Well I got my report card and I didn't fail any of my classes. Aren't you proud. However, I'm defiantly going to make more of an effort this quarter 'cause last quarter was just miserable!!!

10 days til my birthday people get moving...ha ha jk

And steph, I will be totally understandable if I get my present 4 to 6 months later.Hahaha

All this talk....

So today my mom wanted to go out to eat. On the way I asked her what we were doing for thanksgiving this year. But some how the subject got changed. So than I asked her again and she told me that we could either go have thanksgiving with Steph or we could go out to eat. I said "well what about Robin is she going to Joe's parents?" She said yes, but not 'til after she has thanksgiving with her kids. As pathetic as I am I started bawling in front of every body at the restaurant. Its going to be hard. I only remember having thanksgiving with Robin and Joe once but it wasn't the just the fact that I wouldn't be with Joe on thanksgiving but the fact that Robin and the kids wont be with Joe. I cant even write this without crying. I just miss him a lot and I wish every thing could be normal because I still go through the day with things that constantly remind me of Joe.

I don't know if I want to go to a restaurant because that not what Im used to but I also sorta want to be selfish and have just my family at stephs for thanksgiving but I know Chris's mom goes over there so thats not gonna happen either. I guess I'll have to suck it up either way.

So mom suggested we go to Robins this weekend. I heard Alyssa wanted to see my American girl doll. So I'll bring that over and I will consider giving it to her since I don't play with the doll anymore and I know Alyssa will love to play with the doll and all of the little things I have to go along with the doll.

I dont think Robin knows we'll be going over yet.hahaha

11 more days til my 16th birthday!

Yesterday....

I had a short conversation with mom yesterday and it went like this

me: Hey mom guess what?!

Her: What?

me: 13 more days until I turn 16!

Her: * sigh *

Me: Im so excited arent you excited?!

Her: Im getting old....

Me: Im getting old too ya know!

I think its the kids job to make a parent feel old.....not intentionally though

my day off

today went really slow.

lets see....

I burnt myself a CD

I took a shower

I made myself pretty...for nothing

I talked to scott and his mom is out of surgery and doing well.

I watched some Tv

I took care of my laundry

thats about it

15 DAYS TIL MY BIRTHDAY

I mostly just want gift cards

I love khols and the tanger outlet mall...maybe some gas cards for the future since ill be getting my licence in march...or just money in general....or a car lol

Brrrr

Its cold. Much colder than it was last year this time around. Maybe we'll actually get a white Christmas. but lets not jinx it.

anyway I have tomorrow and Monday off, as you know. whew i get to sleep in. The most amazing part is...I'm not going to Scott's house. Can you believe it. It's kinda weird considering that every moment of free time that Ive had has been with Scott pretty much for the past two years ( unless i was grounded ) His mother is going into surgery tomorrow that's why. Not really major surgery but sorta more risky than non major surgeries. but what isn't risky now a days anyway? I'm going to see him Saturday instead of tonight or tomorrow so I guess Ill call some friends and see what they re doing or something.

OMG I almost forgot. You remember how I started to be more friendly and make new friends and stuff because of the Rachel's challenge? Well today at lunch I saw some kids play hack outside. I decided that since my mother failed to give me lunch money that I would go play with them. So I joined. Actually as lunch went on a lot of other kids joined as well. You should have seen the people from different cliques in the circle. Ive never liked cliques and Ive never really labeled myself because I have a variety of friends, "cheerleaders", "football players", "choir peeps", "band geeks", "the hicks" and others who choose to do what I do best, not label themselves in any clique. I didn't play very well in hack but it was fun because I got to see that kids who were different could actually get along with other people. I'm PROUD of not being labeled. I just wish that other people in these so called cliques could realize that most of them are alike. But they wouldn't know it unless they were in my shoes. I try to tell them but they just don't care as much. Since Ive been in high school Ive been going by this " You re only afraid of those who remind you of yourself." So be the best person you can be and the only thing to "fear is fear itself."

This probably doesn't make a lot of sense because I didn't really think this out. I just wrote down my thoughts as I thought it.

PS. 16 days until my birthday
pss. I still am unsure of what I would like
psss. mom, I still really want an I pod!

Oh Deer!

Apparently the deer arent the only things getting hit by cars now a days. Let me tell you my story, its short.....

Today I was walking home and I took my normal route. As I was passing cumberland farms, the convientient store that Im sure you all know, a lady was waiting to pull out of the drive way thingy. She was looking RIGHT at me and wasnt moving or anything so when like 30 LONG seconds passed I decided to keep walking. Now, I usually go around the car or truck but this time I did not. I should have. That lady who SAW me walking started to pull out of the parking lot. SHE HIT ME. Well she nudged me but hard enough to hurt. And that stupid lady kept trying to pull out until I hit my fist on her hood. She could have run me right over. Mom laughed at me and Im sure kim will to and probably the rest of you....But im telling you wednesdays are haunting me!!!!

Anyway today I feel a lot better. Haha, today I went to school after missing two days 'cause i was sick. I got to second period and found out that I have friday off and monday! So lucky me I only had to go in two days this week and only three and a half next week.

Jenn, I am switching classes because its clear that I am not as smart as the rest of my family ( ive seemed to lack those genes ) and Im going down to the regular college classes insted of the advanced college classes.Ill do much better in those classes.

17 DAYS TIL MY 16TH BIRTHDAY!!!

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Um, I'm a little confused about why I make you laugh Kim. Can someone explain that to me?

Only 18 more days until my 16th birthday.

Which reminds me that I need to tell you guys what I want for my birthday. Well I'm sure you all know that Id really like a car but that aint gonna happen!!! That'd be a good laugh and a half. OMG that reminds me!!! I keep having these dreams that I'm driving but my breaks don't work or Ill start speeding and I cant slow down. I guess I have a fear?

Ive been meaning to write about this next thing for a really long time. I've been debating on whether or not to write but I guess I need to get it off my shoulders. Last week or maybe the week before I was pretty much running to the bus stop because I was late. I look up and the bus was there but it was still about 15 or 20 feet in front of me. But I looked really hard in the fog and I swear I saw a man standing in the middle of the road in front of the bus like the bus wouldn't move until I got on. I couldn't see his face because his head was down and he was wearing a baseball hat. When I got on the bus I looked out the window and he was gone. No where to be seen. I didn't say anything because I didn't want people to think I was crazy. But now you guys probably think so. I told mom and she just gave me a look. Not a look like I had two heads, but a look that made me a little uncomfortable. And seriously if you guys think I'm LOONY now just don't tell me cause I was afraid that was going to happen.....

My weekend,

I raked in the rain. I cut my hand with scissors. I thought about Joe...A LOT.Not that that's anything new. I don't know why but my heart still aches really bad. I miss him a lot. I want to see him so bad. I don't know if this happened but him and Jenn were supposed to go snowboarding and me and him had this little inside joke that we would buy another jet ski. And I still feel really bad about yelling at him while we all were playing spinners and he wouldn't pay attention I just cant let any of it go. I promised him when I showed him my schedule for 10th grade that id do a good job and now I'm failing some of my classes. I know this shouldn't mean anything but my birthdays on the 25th and that means a lot to me and not in a good way either. I mean I'm defiantly excited that I'll be 16 but if it was on any day other then the 25th......

Docter Docter!!!

I didnt go to school today because I feel so sick. Im not even going to write a big paragraph about my weekend today or anything because I feel so sick. I wish there was no such thing as GERMS...gah.