So today my mom wanted to go out to eat. On the way I asked her what we were doing for thanksgiving this year. But some how the subject got changed. So than I asked her again and she told me that we could either go have thanksgiving with Steph or we could go out to eat. I said "well what about Robin is she going to Joe's parents?" She said yes, but not 'til after she has thanksgiving with her kids. As pathetic as I am I started bawling in front of every body at the restaurant. Its going to be hard. I only remember having thanksgiving with Robin and Joe once but it wasn't the just the fact that I wouldn't be with Joe on thanksgiving but the fact that Robin and the kids wont be with Joe. I cant even write this without crying. I just miss him a lot and I wish every thing could be normal because I still go through the day with things that constantly remind me of Joe.
I don't know if I want to go to a restaurant because that not what Im used to but I also sorta want to be selfish and have just my family at stephs for thanksgiving but I know Chris's mom goes over there so thats not gonna happen either. I guess I'll have to suck it up either way.
So mom suggested we go to Robins this weekend. I heard Alyssa wanted to see my American girl doll. So I'll bring that over and I will consider giving it to her since I don't play with the doll anymore and I know Alyssa will love to play with the doll and all of the little things I have to go along with the doll.
I dont think Robin knows we'll be going over yet.hahaha
11 more days til my 16th birthday!