WOW

Tomorrow is Christmas eve. For some odd reason it doesn't feel like Christmas. I see the presents under the tree and the decorations and everyone scrambling around and I'm on vacation but it still just doesn't feel like Christmas. I seriously don't even know why. As I prepare for Christmas like wrapping presents and baking, I think 'what am I doing this for?' I really don't know whats wrong with me. It doesn't feel like I feel this way because Joe and Duane wont be with us for Christmas this year. I mean I will miss Joe the same as I do every other day but I seriously don't think that's why I feel this way. Maybe I'm just getting older and Christmas doesn't excite me as much as it used too. This year I'm not worried about getting up at 6 to unwrap presents, I could care less if I sleep in. Oh well...