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Um, I'm a little confused about why I make you laugh Kim. Can someone explain that to me?

Only 18 more days until my 16th birthday.

Which reminds me that I need to tell you guys what I want for my birthday. Well I'm sure you all know that Id really like a car but that aint gonna happen!!! That'd be a good laugh and a half. OMG that reminds me!!! I keep having these dreams that I'm driving but my breaks don't work or Ill start speeding and I cant slow down. I guess I have a fear?

Ive been meaning to write about this next thing for a really long time. I've been debating on whether or not to write but I guess I need to get it off my shoulders. Last week or maybe the week before I was pretty much running to the bus stop because I was late. I look up and the bus was there but it was still about 15 or 20 feet in front of me. But I looked really hard in the fog and I swear I saw a man standing in the middle of the road in front of the bus like the bus wouldn't move until I got on. I couldn't see his face because his head was down and he was wearing a baseball hat. When I got on the bus I looked out the window and he was gone. No where to be seen. I didn't say anything because I didn't want people to think I was crazy. But now you guys probably think so. I told mom and she just gave me a look. Not a look like I had two heads, but a look that made me a little uncomfortable. And seriously if you guys think I'm LOONY now just don't tell me cause I was afraid that was going to happen.....

My weekend,

I raked in the rain. I cut my hand with scissors. I thought about Joe...A LOT.Not that that's anything new. I don't know why but my heart still aches really bad. I miss him a lot. I want to see him so bad. I don't know if this happened but him and Jenn were supposed to go snowboarding and me and him had this little inside joke that we would buy another jet ski. And I still feel really bad about yelling at him while we all were playing spinners and he wouldn't pay attention I just cant let any of it go. I promised him when I showed him my schedule for 10th grade that id do a good job and now I'm failing some of my classes. I know this shouldn't mean anything but my birthdays on the 25th and that means a lot to me and not in a good way either. I mean I'm defiantly excited that I'll be 16 but if it was on any day other then the 25th......