Oh Yeah!!!

I totally forgot today was fathers day. Basically because I don't have a father around to say it to. I have no control over that. Believe it or not I spent memorial day night expressing how I feel about my father to him. He didn't really care and got mad and blamed me and every one else FOR HIS ABSENCE. Chuck just kept saying how it wasn't his fault at all. I cried about it for a while but then I realized if he's not man enough to own up to what he HASN'T been doing during my 17 years of life, than he's not man enough to be my father. I hate to be wicked conceited when I say this but hes missed out on something great. I have been so successful with school and with certain goals that I have and he's missed out. Not me.
Mom at one point was trying to calm me down and while I was still upset I said "I just want what you've had your whole life." and she said "You do" And she is right. Beepa may not be my father haha, but he is my grandfather and he has been here for me my whole life. And every time I think about it I cry because I don't know what I'd do with out him. I had the opportunity to live with my grandparents for two years out of my life. During that time beepa taught me right and wrong. He taught me respect, even though mom and I still get into occasional arguments and every time I think of Beepa and I apologize to mom. He taught me table manners and still teaches me haha. He gives me complete support with any decisions I may have and he always praises me when I've done something well. Which brings me back years ago when Steph gave us flowers and each kid had to give it to someone who was their hero or someone they look up to. I gave mine to Beepa. And if someone gave me a million bucks to give to the person I look up to, I'd give it to Beepa.
With that said, I never missed out on having a male figure in my life because I have Beepa. Like I said he may not be my father but he is my grandfather and in my case that is the best thing.

Anyway. I started work today at Ames Farm and I pretty much love it. Who woulda thunk it? I hate cleaning my room but I actually like cleaning the cabins. I'm sure once I work there a few times I will hate it. But for now I like it.

So Now What?

School is out for summer. As most of you know last summer I didn't make one cent. I didn't want to give up my summers at camp yet. But now I realize that I should've. I could've worked a little bit harder to find a job, but I didn't.
This summer I plan on working as much as I can. I work saturdays at Ames Farm Inn. I'm still waiting to hear back from Tom at Levi's ( which should be soon cuz he said by the end of this week )I'm pretty confident I will get the job. If I do, I'll be working from 4:30 pm til about 10pm on weekdays and saturday. Then all day sundays. Im working the evening shifts because I have to wait for mom to get home. BUT when the three places down town open up ( Walgreens, CVS, and My Coffee House ) I plan on applying to work day shifts because I can just walk there.
Thank God for edline because I have been able to look at all the grades I got on my final.
Memoir I got a 95 making my class average an 87
I finally passed physical science with a 72 making my class average and 84
Early Childhood I got a 99! making my class average an 88
Concert Choir I got a 75 =( but my class average is an 83
History I got a 90 making my class average an 81

This is sadly my first year in high school passing every class I took this year including first semester. I don't have to retake anything. But I am proud of myself. Senoir year will be incredibly easy so hopefully we will make it two years passing all my classes


Also I want my aunts to know how grateful I am for everything they have done for me. I know that sounds corney and random but it's true. Im grateful for my whole family of course, but its just lately that my aunts have done a lot for me.

Aunty Robin helped my mom and I get my recording on to a CD-R so I could send it in to the red sox. I know to her its not hard to do, but for mom and I it's like rocket science. With out her I wouldn't have been able to get it on a CD and send it in.

Aunty Steph is taking my senior pictures so I don't have to pay $150-200 for them. In a way we are helping each other out. She has an assignment to take formal pictures and I need senoir pictures. She is even driving all the way up to Laconia to take them so I dont have to find a ride down there.

Aunty Kim has let me stay with her not once but twice down in Florida. She even let my best friend come down with me this last time. With out her I don't think I would've experienced even half the things I did while I was with her. We did things like go to a seaquarium and watch dolpin and whale shows. We took a long drive down alligator ally and counted 122 gators! We went on an air boat ride. We went to cold stone creamery where I experienced the best ice cream ever. We went on a Safari where I got to see incredible animals. And so much more.

I'm equally grateful for all of them.

Waiting Game

I had my interview today at 1. Everything went very well. Even after we were done with the interview we just talked. I'm hoping thats a sign that he will call me in a week to schedule the second interview. If he does call me for the second interview I will go and then from there i will know if I have the job or not.

This is my last week of school. Im excited but also overwhelmed. I cant say enough about how my junior year went by too fast. If my junior year went by so fast I can only imagine how fast my senior year will go. WOAH

Good News

Yesterday I recorded the anthem with 'G' and put it onto a CD. It took me eight times to get it right. Some reasons were because the office kept going over the intercom and others being because I would stop in the middle of a verse because I didn't like how it sounded. And I still don't. But whatever. I'm going to see if I can get it on here some time. I cant now cuz mom has it at Robins.

Also yesterday my best friend graduated. I am really proud of her and I know she will work just as hard if not harder in college as did in LHS. I will miss her a lot at school. I will miss having lunches with her, or finding her in the hall ways in between classes and yelling 'I LOVE YOU' across the halls. But I know we will still remain friends. Our friendship is way to strong to let it go that easily. We do way to much together. The best part about that is we rarely get sick of each other and if we do we aren't afraid to say it because we both know we wont be offended if one of us does get annoyed by the other.

To prove we do everything together we got another job together. Which is working at Ames Farm Inn on Saturdays. We even both have an interview tomorrow for Levi's. Her's is at 11:30 and mine is at 1. I have complete faith that both of us will get this job.

Levi's is actually a year round job. When I went in to apply the lady who gave us our apps said that they were hiring because 4 people left, So they were at least hiring 4 people. =) I'm grateful for multiple reasons. One, I went in to apply at the right time. Two, I have and interview. Three, its year round and NOT seasonal :). Four, I hear the pay is good. And five, I'm hoping to save enough money all summer to get a car in at least November. I would get a car by maybe the end of summer but I figure it's best to wait a little while longer til my birth day month so I don't have to pay for inspection and registration twice in like 2 or 3 months. Smart? I know.

Anyway, I will post tomorrow after my interveiw to let you know how it went. Wish me luck.

Well I am excited!!!

While riding in the car with my mom on the way to Luke's base ball game, we came out with a list of solutions to come up with a way to sing and get it on a CD. We narrowed it down to singing on the web cam and then burning it to a CD. I thought that was good enough. UNTIL I remember that my choir teacher has a recording system. This recording system has everything I need for best quality.

So I went to 'G' today and asked her and she said "OF COURSE!" So Friday from the moment I get out of school at 2:30 all the way until 6: 30, 'G' and I are going to work together to get this CD made. That's plenty of time.

Then at 6:30 Rebecca is graduating. She gave me one of her free tickets to go and I will obviously be there for her just as I know she will do the same for me next year.

I also got a call from my boss at Ames Farm Inn to work on the 21st and the 27Th. Plus I called Levi's yesterday and they would like me to call and schedule an interview this Saturday.

I told mom yesterday that things finally seem to be going my way. =) Im probably the happiest I've been in a very long time.

Well I WAS excited...

Two Friday's ago I wrote an email to the ambassador of the Red Sox. I asked him if there was a possibility for me to sing the National Anthem at a Red Sox game. I waited and waited and waited to get an email back. I almost gave up hope UNTIL...I got this email today...

"Thank you for writing to the Red Sox and for your interest in singing the National Anthem at Fenway Park . If you would like to audition to sing the National Anthem at an upcoming game, please send us a CD of yourself performing the Star Spangled Banner, a cappella in 90 seconds or less. Please include your biographical information along with the CD. Please make sure to put your name and phone number on the CD itself in case the CD and the case get separated. Please mail your CD to the Boston Red Sox, 4 Yawkey Way , Boston , MA 02215 attn: Anthem.


Phil Derick
Fenway Ambassador
Boston Red Sox "

I have multiple problems with this. One : I dont have a USB cord for my acutal video camera. Two : I could use my red digital camera except the quality for audio sucks major so thats out of the question. Third : Just to try it out I sang on my digital camera and then tried to burn it onto a CD but I can't figure out how to burn it onto a CD.

Unless I cant figure out another alternative...this idea is pretty much shot.

My addiction

I have learned a lot about unhealthy addictions in my past. But the addiction I have is healthy. I cannot stop reading Jodi Picoult books. So maybe my obsession for Jodi Picoult is unhealthy but reading is healthy right? I became hooked when I read My Sisters Keeper over April Vacation. I read that book the whole way to Florida, the whole way back from Florida and at night before I went to bed. And I read it just in time too because the movie for it is coming out this month. Grammy hit me up sometime so we can go see it together. I also read Picture Perfect and I'm now reading Plain Truth and her new book Handle with Care. I started reading Plain Truth memorial day and I'm a little over half way through but then I got a call from the Library saying they had her new book on hold for me and I had to go pick it up. So as much as I hate to put down Plain Truth I love that I'm reading her new book before grammy. I'll definitely pick up Plain Truth again when I'm finished with Handle with Care but I gotta read that one first because I have to get it back to the Library but the 16th. But at the rate its going I will be done with the book by Monday or Tuesday next week and I just got the book yesterday.

I basically read every free chance I get. While we are watching a movie in class, or before the bell rings, or at lunch. LOL. I have to go get home work done now so I can read my book. =P

I do have the best mom ever

SHE BOUGHT 2 RED SOX TICKETS FOR THIS SUNDAY. I am stoked. Like for real. I can't wait to go. Oh Ma Gaw!

Whoops

It's too bad that cold and old sound a like. Mom asked me today if I thought she looked old. I replied 'yes' because I thought she said " Do you think i have a cold?" So I got up in attempt to take her temperature and then she repeated her question and I was like "OHHHHHH I thought you asked if I thought you had a cold." haha whoops. Love you Ma